Position and Teacher's child

In my time at school, some of my anecdotes revolved around having a position in my classroom and being the teacher's child. Having status or being a teacher's child influenced my expression.

As a student, I was terrified of positions with authority because they came with great responsibility. In 10th grade, I was appointed class monitor, which was a negative experience. Our math teacher made an extra (overtime) class available, but we chose not to attend. She told me one day in class, "Class monitor, I have a private extra class if you're interested!". I did not feel obligated to attend the extra class, as the students decided to do so. As the class monitor, however, I was the first to be affected. Even after I lost the position, the teacher continued to dislike me and found methods to make my school time difficult. Her actions caused me to struggle with Math for a half-semester. However, I was too terrified to take action. I considered telling my mother but decided against it because I believed she wouldn't comprehend how I felt.

In 11th grade, I no longer held a position in the classroom but still had a voice. Once, I proposed a solution to a learning issue in our class. I wanted to be forthright about the problem, but the class monitor disagreed with my approach. She was intelligent and had a kind personality. She was hesitant because those in leadership positions, such as the class monitor, were always the first to assume entire responsibility. She could not relay my ideas precisely when she reported to the teacher. She would use an understatement.

Regarding being the teacher's child, I studied with the teacher, who was my mother, in the third grade. My mother taught me for only one semester, and her interactions with me were minimal. Whenever I talked, I observed my friends would think I knew the answer because my mom had already taught me at home. So I was limited to communicating with my mother in class. To avoid the suspicion of my classmates, my mother forbade me from holding any position in the class. My mother only once asked me in private if I desired to be the Young Pioneer commander. This position had minimal responsibilities, and no one in the class qualified for it then, so if my mother requested it, I would comply. Then, my closest friend opposed that. She demonstrated her displeasure by stating that she believed I received the position because I was the teacher's child. My mother announced in front of the class that there was a proposition for me to be the Young Pioneer Commander and asked if everyone favored it. In actuality, they had no other opinions and dared not act because it was challenging to speak up when the teacher appointed me. In addition, I was pretty popular at school, so few of my classmates opposed my holding that position. 

I grappled with the subject of Literature in 10th grade. Because my mother was a teacher, and I felt that my Literature teacher didn't like my mother, the teacher would treat me unjustly for personal reasons. My peers also observed that I was mistreated. Even the student seated next to me was affected. When the student sitting next to me was summoned up to the board and unable to complete the assignment, the teacher's way made us feel pressured. Occasionally, other students found it humorous, but I found it highly stressful. The teacher did this by elongating my name, increasing her voice, speaking mockingly, and not making eye contact with me while talking. Another time when another teacher came to find me, my Literature teacher pointed a ruler at my face and informed me that someone was searching for me. These actions frustrated me with the feeling of being unrespected.

This was my experience during my education years regarding positions and being the child of a teacher. Being the child of a teacher is unavoidable, but I progressively declined positions because, in addition to the responsibilities, I felt that they brought a great deal of fame-seeking. Later, I was told that I could assist more people and have more influence if I had a position. I also considered this issue.